Sleep Deprivation Daze

As the night came to a close at the sushi restaurant where I work as a hostess, I pulled out a notepad from the desk and began writing my awfully dazed thoughts.  I had been just staring with empty eyes at  empty tables when I began to question my decision making skills. Why did I think staying up all night with my friends watching all the Star Wars movies was a good idea? I was so tried. The type of tired where you just want to lay on the floor for a few hours without thinking or even sleeping. I listened to the loud and chaotic clashing sounds of the restaurant, and kept thinking how can I feel like calm and clear in my head? I felt like I was in that scene of a movie where the main character is hungover or high and the camera moves slowly capturing everything and the sound of the world is dulled. Can you get hungover from not sleepin? I can't use word hungover in a sentence that doesn't involve/imply drinking. 

My contacts sting from being in my eyes for over 24 hours, but other than that I sort of liked how this daze felt. Being so tired (but not sleep tired) kept me eye wide awake. Everything was so clear in my head and it felt like someone turned down the world volume. I either felt like I was so aware of everything going on around me or like I was walking around like a zombie. A zombie who could dear people and bus tables effortlessly. 

I had never felt this way before. Usually when I get this little sleep I have to endure school, teachers and peers, and hate life the next day walking around miserably, and also like a zombie. 

I looked at the time and I only had half an hour left to work and my mind switched gears to what I was going to order for dinner. The perks of being the owners daughter. I'll never get used to it. Sushi is such a clean played food, I like it. None of the food touches that isn't supposed to because you have neat little plates with small walls dividing the plate. 

26 minutes and counting. 

Why don't I write in a notebook anymore? It's exceedingly satisfying. I type everything on my phone now, quite lazy. I'll have to start carrying a notebook and pen with me more often. I feel like my head is exploding with ideas right now. I love this feeling. 

Sincerely,

Imanie